Amsterdam Photo Diary

Just before Christmas David and I took ourselves off for a wee city break to Amsterdam, I honestly think that its the best city break I've been on. I didn't over plan the whole holiday, just had a vague idea of what I wanted us to see, rather than knowing where we would be at what time and what day like in previous holidays. We also ate so much amazing food - a post featuring all the foody bits will come soon too! 
Amsterdam is an amazing city, its so laid back and chilled you could easily spend two days here and see it all or spread it out over a week and just wander about. I want to go back, and hopefully 2018 will see me back there. 

Taking Time For Your Mental Health

At the time I'm writing this I am sat at home, having a mental battle with myself on whether or not I should go to the Arbonne Christmas Party that at this moment in time starts in just over an hour. The outfit I'm wearing is the least Christmassy thing ever and although it was an outfit I once rocked with ease I now find myself feeling really uneasy in it, picking at every little thing and to be honest with you getting myself in a bit of a tissy. So I thought what better time to blog, something that historically calms me down and makes me feel better than now.
Let me tell you, this post is not something I ever thought I'd be writing but I thought it was something worthwhile sharing as so many people have similar struggles, its sometimes good to read these to know your not alone in how your feeling. 
As its now 2018, I thought I'd actually post this - my goal for this year is to be much more open with my mental health and to get control over it again, rather than letting it control me and dictate what I do with myself. 

ACAI Activewear | UKLingerie.com

If anyone knows me, you'll know that I love going to the gym. I try to train at least 4 times a week, some weeks I can train 6 times a week. I was really kindly sent some active wear from UKLingerie - the things I got I am so pleased with. 

The first thing I spotted on their website was this lovely spider back top*. All their active wear is from a brand called Acai, the top is really nicely designed. Its a nice sort of thick material with a cut out back. I've worn this to the gym a few times now and I have to say it works really well as a gym top. Keeps you cool while you work out, its comfy to wear and it looks cool as well! It's basically everything you could ask of from a workout top. The top costs £39, the top is really high quality and I think it'll last really well. 

I also spied this pretty little tank*, tank tops are the perfect companion for back and shoulder days. And when they look cute its always a bonus!!! Its got a built in sports bra but frankly I cant benefit from it, I unfortunately still need to wear an actual sports bra. The back for this tank is pretty, its got an overlapping string detail on it. Its also got a cool mesh panel at the front of it. Its a bit more expensive than the previous top at £51 but if you're able to make use out of the built in bra then its pretty decent value. 

Final item I got was the Never Grow Up Leggings*, these are lovely on. I found them a tiny bit loose on the waist but my waist is a little smaller than the sizing in the guide. The design on the leggings is really pretty too but I do think where the design is on the leggings is a little bit more see through than you'd like in a pair of leggings. However the design is only around the lower leg, so while squatting ect its not an issue. They cost £69, they have a good amount of support in them and a huge pocket on the thigh. 

Have you ever heard of Acai sportswear before? What do you think of what I got? 

items marked with * were sent for review purposes  

Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018

As I get older the years seem to genuinely get shorter... They also seem to get more and more shit. Just me that thinks this? No? Ok good. As its now two days in to 2018 I thought I'd do this post.
2017 shot by in a heartbreat. I've gone through heartbreak, been at an all time low for my self esteem and confidence, picked myself back up, transformed myself completely and became probably the most confident and happy version of myself, met David (my absolute rock and best friend, if you're reading this Caitlyn and Aileen soz x), failed uni again, been broke all year, had so many panic attacks and lows, having certain people watch your every move online and not leaving you/ your relationship alone and now here we are the end of December 2018 and to be completely honest with you - I near enough cried on Christmas day, not cause I was happy and grateful and what not, but because I was so deflated and unhappy. 
My mental health in 2017 was all over the place, I went from feeling horrific to feeling amazing to once again feeling horrific, even though I've been to some incredible places with my friends and David and have met so many amazing new people, I just cant seem to shake the feeling, to describe it I'd probably just say that I felt raw/numb? A bit cut off emotionally, and in general just feel very off and not like me. 
2017 made me its bitch but 2018 be warned cause I'm going to dominate you even if it kills me - I kid, I wont let 2018 kill me that would kinda mean that once again I was the lil bitch.