Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018

As I get older the years seem to genuinely get shorter... They also seem to get more and more shit. Just me that thinks this? No? Ok good. As its now two days in to 2018 I thought I'd do this post.
2017 shot by in a heartbreat. I've gone through heartbreak, been at an all time low for my self esteem and confidence, picked myself back up, transformed myself completely and became probably the most confident and happy version of myself, met David (my absolute rock and best friend, if you're reading this Caitlyn and Aileen soz x), failed uni again, been broke all year, had so many panic attacks and lows, having certain people watch your every move online and not leaving you/ your relationship alone and now here we are the end of December 2018 and to be completely honest with you - I near enough cried on Christmas day, not cause I was happy and grateful and what not, but because I was so deflated and unhappy. 
My mental health in 2017 was all over the place, I went from feeling horrific to feeling amazing to once again feeling horrific, even though I've been to some incredible places with my friends and David and have met so many amazing new people, I just cant seem to shake the feeling, to describe it I'd probably just say that I felt raw/numb? A bit cut off emotionally, and in general just feel very off and not like me. 
2017 made me its bitch but 2018 be warned cause I'm going to dominate you even if it kills me - I kid, I wont let 2018 kill me that would kinda mean that once again I was the lil bitch. 

OOTD & FOTD - New Years Dinner

Every year, or almost every, I go to my Grans house for New Year. We eat lots of food, Steak Pie (the best and softest crust part), potatoes, carrots, apple pie with ice cream and left over Christmas cake. My Gran also brought out Jaffa Cakes when everyone was having coffee cause she knows how much I like them! My gran is to good to me. Any way - heres some pictures of what I wore!

My dress was from Urban Outfitters, I got it in the sale just recently. My jumper is also a sale purchase from UO, its so soft and cosy. I decided to put tights on since it was kind of cold and I think it looks slightly better with tights on. My shoes have a slight heel on them and are from Topshop. They have a sturdy sole, they are fairly comfortable but after a long time wearing them your feet can start to feel a bit sore. My little bracelet was a 18th birthday present and New Years was the first time I had worn it - the magnet that keeps it together has come off so I need to get glue and fix it. 

Make-up wise I didn't have much time to do much with my face before we had to leave. But anyhoo, my make-up is as follows: my foundation is benefits Hello Flawless, I applied my Soap and Glory One Heck Of A Blot powder, Lord and Berry Eyebrow pencil, L'Oreal's new Mascara Miss Manga and for the lips Maybelline's Moisture Renew in Dark Night Water-oops.

I'll just leave you with this picture of my mum, gran and me all with tea cosys on our heads - we were recreating a picture that was taken exactly like this 17 years ago.

Hope you all had a good New Year!

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#2014BloggerChallenge | New Years Inspiration

At the end of November I came across this Challenge and instantly wanted to sign up. I think this challenge is going to have posts throughout 2014, but I could be wrong.
So this first post is for New Years Inspiration - this is sort of an alternative to writing New Years resolutions, so instead we share a quote or a picture to inspire us and you all for the year ahead. I sat for a long time thinking about what I was going to do my post about before I came up with any ideas for this.
In 2013 I had quite a bit of body confidence - and just general confidence issues. I was always worried and stressed out - not really how your wanting to feel. I only started to feel better about myself towards the end of the year and I'm going to make sure that I feel a billion times better next year. And hopefully you will to!

Wanting to be someone else is a waste of  the person you are. 

                                                                                               - Marilyn Monroe 

I love this quote - I just think its so nice. Its a lovely reminder that no matter what or how you feel about yourself, you are completely unique and special. No one could replace you. Or at least that's how I take it. I also think that the person your envious of is probably envious of other people for similar reasons. 

Keep smiling, because life is a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about. 

                                                                                                     -Marilyn Monroe

This next quote I have on my wall in my room, it makes me smile every time I see it. I think for anyone and everyone this quote is relevant. No matter how crap you feel about yourself, there is always something to look forward to. I'm going to be setting goals this year - that way I always something to aim for. Goals to me are a distraction and they help so much when I'm feeling down. 

Happy New Year everyone!

I hope you have an amazing 2014!

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Happy New Year!

So long 2013, and hello to 2014. I just wanted to do a quick post as in less than 6 hours it will officially be the 1st of January 2014! It is so mad! I remember it becoming 2013 like it was only yesterday.
As far as good years go, 2013 was a pretty good year for me: I passed my exams, got into University, turned 18, passed all my tests in the first semester, oh and I got my very first grown up person job. And it was in one of my favourite places. My blog gained lots of new readers and it gained me posting fairly regularly.
I've found my confidence grow so much over the last year, and I am so grateful to everyone and anyone that has helped me gain this confidence. That includes all of you reading and commenting on my blog.
I can only hope that 2014 is as good to me as 2013 was ( and not as bad as 2012)...
I don't have any plans for tonight, probably just sit in with my mum - my little brother even has plans - we might do shots and have some karaoke, cause I mean come on whats New Year without a little sing along. then when the clock hits midnight I'll send out a massive group text to everyone I have on my phone. I might be normal and say Happy New Year, I might be weird and say something different - who knows.
But anyway - have a great day, and have an epic fantabulous New Year

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